The Fallow House

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Noise

By Victoria Reyna

Time has passed, life continues to move on. The weight of everyone around me is too much. My heart hurts and misses so many memories. I want to make them again. I want to leave behind the shame and guilt, all the lies crowding in. How did I lose focus? Am I seeking approval of man or of God? So many outside voices. Everyone has their own opinion or idea of what to think. But is it Yours? Are they listening to You? It’s not their life, it’s me and You, and yet somehow, I fear I might disappoint. So many internal voices mocking and criticizing. Let them go, quiet them now. Can I put headphones in and drown out the noise? Where You show me, I will go. I want to listen to You in the wind and the waves. I want to listen in the rain. I want to hear Your voice. Lead me, I will follow. Take each step of mine in faith and obedience. I want to dance in Your freedom and joy. I want to carry peace that You bring. I want to hear You; I want to listen in the river flowing and the trees rustling. I want to go slow and steady. To hear Your voice that calls my name. I want to sit in the silence with You alone. Now I am seeing how life is restored. I don’t want to be distracted by all the noise.